Sanctuary

The problems we encounter in life seem magnified when dealing with the symptom set called Morgellons. If life is simply a spiritual obstacle course, then it is important to understand The Creator would not give you a hurdle you cannot overcome. My last entry had to do with faith; simply said, have it. Along with faith I recommend another tool of importance—sanctuary.

My current setting and situation required me to establish some peaceful place I will call sanctuary. Sometimes it is not the easiest place to find. In hindsight, I am glad I took up the space in my backpack for my hammock as I packed for Tanzania some six months ago; this is one of my primary sanctuaries.

In interviewing for my current work position, I was told there was “plenty of hiking” and “The air quality is good”. Of course, as one cleans out their system of toxins, they do not want to replace with other toxins. So, I wanted assurance I would have clean air to breathe; instead I’ve been inhaling diesel fumes and smoke from burning trash. Hiking is a key piece of who I am. If I can go for an hour long hike each day, I find I feel much better than without. While I have found some dirt trails to hike along the river, I have been told it can be a very dangerous setting (not exactly what I had in mind for my hiking addiction). Add the stress of a several layered dysfunctional situation and you have severe stress. It hasn’t been pleasant.

Besides swinging in my hammock, I have relied heavily on my background of using the 12 Steps of A. A. utilized in the A. C. O. A. meetings I’d attended for many years. In fact, I had a coin given to me at one meeting with “To thine own self be true” on one side and The Serenity Prayer on the other. I carried this with me and repeated the prayer at least a dozen times each day until I lost it last month. I have replaced my lost coin with a pebble given to me by a new friend which she called a “Gratitude” reminder. Both have been helpful tools.

I mention my sanctuaries as examples; yours may be different. You know what they are.

So, in assisting to take on this hurdle in life, I list some suggestions which are likely repeated somewhere else in my writing.

1) Find sanctuary- You know what this looks like for you. Whatever this place or action is, as long as it doesn’t harm you or another, do it!
2) See symptoms as symptoms- I know how the symptoms feel. I know they are all consuming. I do believe they are primarily the result of toxins. See them as simply symptoms and nothing more.
3) Exercise- Whether it is a walk in the park or some simple yoga stretches, exercise has significant effect. I highly recommend at least one hour of walking each day. Quiet stretching exercise is good in assisting the body with removal of toxins, so yoga, tai chi, and such are great pursuits.
4) Jump the hurdle in front of you- Just like anything, if you don’t visualize it happening it won’t. See yourself healing.

As always, I wish you peace and good health. Happy trails, Joe

Faith

I’ve had a couple of strangely reflective days.

Yesterday was Sunday. I felt inspired and needing a place of worship. Maybe I wanted more. Maybe I wanted to connect to people too.

I got up early and followed a dirt path along the highway to the church on the far side of town. While I’m not much for singing and preaching, I felt it was what I needed. I have to admit it didn’t inspire me. I didn’t feel connected. In fact, I left the church and followed the dirt path back to my residence. I reflected and, while I mean it not to sound judgmental, it felt like a political setting and, if there is one form of human interaction I suck at it’s being political. I got home down and depressed.

As it is my nature, I’ve discovered trails in the jungles within Arusha. I went out for an afternoon walk. It felt good to be closer to nature. The trees and birds lifted my spirit. I decided to walk over to an ancient Catholic church set on a hill a short walk away. I got there and could hear a service in Swahili going on. It was towards evening. I must have looked strange in my dripping clothes; the Catholic school kids filling the pews kept glancing back excited by my visitation.

I walked out in the mist and chill to find a beaten pew under a broken stained glass window. Alone I sat silent and listened to the children singing inside. It had the kind of beauty making life such a good journey. I needed it and felt much better by the time I’d started my walk back in the misty twilight.

My work setting has been challenging. I’m thankful for the kids; they seem to have grown greatly since my arrival. I’ve found it more relaxed and sincere with the Tanzanian coworkers. The present challenges come from others who, for their own reasons, find comfort in causing me distress. I wish it wasn’t so.

Riding home on the “Workers’ Bus” I asked the lady next to me about her Bible. “It helps me when I’m down,” she said. We share some more.

I have read the Bible once through; it was when I was in the thick of things with Morgellons. It did bring me comfort. I won’t say I’m a Bible thumper, but I do enjoy reliving some of the stories from my religious education from so long ago. Tonight I read Joseph’s story. It reminded me of a regularly visited mantra in my life—have faith.

So, as I know so many of you are suffering from Morgellons and its symptoms, have faith. In the end, it may be the greatest form of detox we have. Peace- Joe

Toxic Stray or Finding Balance

Last night I had four beers. I hadn't meant to. I was handed one on the bus ride back from Moshi. The ride from Moshi to Arusha takes about an hour and a half, so I got a second beer from the school stocked cooler. Two beers was plenty, but when I sat down to visit some friends and was offered another...I felt obligated. Finally, getting home my landlord was waiting for me...of course he really wanted to go out for a beer. Anyhow, I had four beers and four beers was plenty.

This morning I am dragging. I do not drink often. I'd say I average once every other week or less. It is something I can live with or without. My family history of alcoholism is always at the front of my mind. I don't like to feel off balance.

Spiritually, I envision a path going directly to the light. When I'm off balance, I am straying from the path. Sometimes it is my ego, sometimes it is a need not getting met, sometimes it is too much food, sometimes it is too much to drink, I make bad choices--what is key is it puts me off balance.

I am starting to understand toxins this way. A toxin is something which puts our life off balance. It is possible to have life off balance physically, spiritually, or mentally. Bringing our life into balance and keeping it there, is our challenge. I am trying.

Sometimes it takes sitting in quiet to find clarity. I will take some quiet this weekend. I will focus on balance and build upon what I know.

Chelation Break

Yesterday was an especially stressful day with my students (trauma over the cancellation of Secret Santa). A life lesson learn? Let us be hopeful.

Speaking of stress and all things toxic, my chelation replacement minerals are running short. Given the difficulty and cost of having some meds mailed to me in Tanzania, I emailed Dr. Bruce Shelton (my primary doctor for all things related to chelation). He more or less said, "Take a break". This makes me a little nervous and I'm not certain why.

Given all I've gone through in this new setting, I have officially resigned from my teaching post. I plan to return to the US when summer comes around.

So, I will be going off chelation for six months. It may give me more reason to expand on other means of detox (such as yoga and exercise). I have been steadily following my chelation protocol for 3 1/2 years. It'll be a change. I will plan some major detox when I return to The States.

Toxic Presentation

I have offered to do a workshop presentation on toxicity at the school I work at. I'm not entirely certain what I'll say. I have in my mind a picture of dealing with toxicity at three levels (individually, within the home and regionally). I can speak from my experience with Morgellons and toxicity. I guess the more we share, the more we learn.

I am doing my best to keep myself healthy while abroad. My water filters don't fit the tap or showers. So, for now, I drink bottled water and limit my showers.

With the rains lately the mosquito population is booming. I do use some toxic spray on my netting once each day. I wish I didn't feel I need to (guess I weigh toxins against possible malaria).

Sources tell me the effects of the B.P. oil spill are terrifying! It amazes me in today's world I have to rely on words from a friend and do not hear anything from the media. I guess greed begets greed.

Is Morgellons in Natural Home Magazine?

It's late on a Saturday night in Arusha. Part of what I'm missing in Tanzania is regular mail. I like to know I can put something in an envelope or box and know it will arrive at its destination in a couple of days or, at most, four. Things can go slow over here...especially mail.

My brother Chris emailed me yesterday to tell me he'd gotten his copy of Natural Home Magazine (Nov/Dec issue) and the return article on my home in Wellsboro, PA. I'd wanted to take a "green" approach towards eliminating/containing toxins. I think I did a decent job. The article looks at all I did and cost (I believe).

Not having seen the article, I'm wondering if it mentions Morgellons Disease. When I spoke with the writer I mentioned Morgellons and prompted her to look into it further. I am wondering if she mentioned my having this condition and the necessity for detox work. I suspect my copy of the magazine will arrive here in two or three weeks. If you're quick about getting to your local news store, you may be able to read it before I do. If any of my three followers read it, let me know if Morgellons is mentioned.

Back to my Mer-world edit.

Adjusting

I've been caught in a whirlwind over the last couple of months. Simply put, I've been adjusting to a new life far from home.

Tanzania has some amazing sights. Living below Mount Meru is pretty inspirational...at least when the clouds clear. I like the sight of well dressed women riding side saddle on the backs of bicycles. Along the roads to school are swarms of people walking somewhere; many are groups of children dressed in school uniforms. I also see men acting as beast of burden...pulling carts full of tires, pineapples, people, furniture. Bikes with motors and motorcycles sneak through narrows in the slow moving traffic. Diesel fills the air puffing out of trucks and buses. Dali dalis packed and moving sometimes at breakneck speed through heavy traffic...daring and obnoxious in the same breath.

I have enjoyed my time with many of the Tanzanians. Swahili is like some happy dream language someone made up on a slow boat ride along the coast.

I still have Morgellons on my mind (not literally). I've wanted to see if Morgellons symptoms appear in connection to skin whitening cream use. Some studies reviewed document "scabies" with skin creams. I haven't been able to connect with any dermatologists or parasitologists who might have encountered patients with Morgellons along the way. There is a medical center with dermatologist in Moshi...I hope to go over there and visit.

Since this is a blog and I am a writer, I need to mention the official release date for my first book. Grandpa and the Christmas Crib will be released by Turquoise Morning Press on next Monday. It is already available for sale through Amazon. Cool, eh!? Unknown to my editor, forgive me Kim, are some Morgellons related imagery in the illustrations (it just felt right).